Tuesday, September 29, 2015

30 Years

For ten years, I drank. A lot. Enough to destroy my tolerance to it, enough to start seeing stuff that wasn't there, enough to turn me into someone I couldn't stand, enough to want to die. 

But part of me didn't want that. At my lowest ebb, and after trying everything I could think of to stop, and failing, I prayed for God to override the overwhelming compulsion to drink, to just get me through to the morning without drinking, because I could not do it myself. 

I stayed sober that night, and as of today, I have been sober for 30 years continuously. If you think miracles don't really happen, I'm standing here to tell you that they do, and I am grateful every day.

 

16 comments:

Lynn said...

I'm so proud of you for doing that, Shay.

Helen said...

You are brave and strong and the epitome of inspiration ....

Kerry O'Connor said...

What a huge milestone, Shay. I can only imagine the kind of willpower it takes to defeat addiction. Your story is an inspiration.

Sherry Blue Sky said...

Shay, I know how much strength, courage and grit it took to get through that first night and then each of the days following. Congratulations on those thirty years. You chose the path of recovery which allowed you to grace the world with your wonderful poems. I hope you do something very special for yourself, to celebrate this milestone. Way to be!!!!!

TexWisGirl said...

i just sent you a huge hug for sending this message out into the world. :)

Ileana said...

You have the God-given power to be the best you you can be. I applaud you, chica.

hedgewitch said...

I am so grateful that you found from whatever source, within or without of yourself,or both, the grace to save you, and to live--so many that should can't before it's too late. You have enriched my life with your friendship and your beautiful winged words that have spoken so many times straight to my heart. I am so proud of you, dear Shay, and so glad you are here with us to celebrate this very memorable day.

Cloudia said...

I am grateful for the miracle you have been in my life







ALOHA
ComfortSpiral

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The Subversive Librarian said...

Congratulations, Shay. That's absolutely wonderful!

Marcoantonio Arellano said...

i'm inspired and grateful to know someone with such strength. this effort probably contributed to your lucidity, and display of your creativeness if only by the time alloted in exchange for the time wasted in a non-sobriety state.

your accomplishment is one to behold

gracias for sharing

Mama Zen said...

So am I. A wildly, wonderful miracle.

Kathleen's Blog said...

You are VERY strong---be proud!! Wow--congratulations seems so small to say to you for that.

Buddah Moskowitz said...

Sorry I missed this wonderful occasion, but as a fellow recovering alcoholic (with 25 years), I send you all the love in the world, as many hugs as you can stand, and a big congratulatory MWAH! on your beautiful face!

You are a walking, talking miracle and I am so proud to know/love you,
Mosk the Sober

K9friend said...

You are an amazing woman and have reason to be very proud. Congratulations!

Pat
Critter Alley

Margaret said...

Never doubt that you are more than enough once you realize the grace God can provide, the love he can touch our hearts with? Love for ourselves, so we can then give and receive it. That's the key, I think. I think of your son and all that awaits their future and of course, yours. Hugs. 30 years is quite a milestone. Keep marching :)

mac said...

I know, those first few days (hours, weeks, years) are tough. I'm sure, from that perspective of 30 years ago, you never could have imagined being where you are now.

YOU did it!