Idiot child of broken clocks, you once again brandish your prop razor
and my pretense skin curls away in shavings of apple peel red.
Glitter-eyed goblin, my adopted doppelganger monster,
here is your furious holiday for inmates.
I wave my frayed pennant and slide soggy sophistry down the coin slot
of the arcade game called Ouroboros Hoola-Hoop Boomerang For Dummies.
I like to think that my heart is not an unsafe toy.
I like to think that my blood is made of milk, my fingertips of cotton swabs.
Idiot child with the air raid stuck in your throat, fire-bug goblin,
do not call me sister, or mother, or twin.
There is an oven filled with cakes and loaves,
another with needles and broken glass.
Why scribble my name in static on the sunspot glass of the door?
Why not go die somewhere,
dissolve into tiny scrubbing bubbles of amnesia,
or while away the empty hours on the locked ward birthing lexicons for lunatics?
Why stand in the sudden mirror like immolated Jaycees
wearing Hello My Name Is Me stickers on your smoldering shoulders?
Why pen me inside an iron zodiac
with my temper and PTSD that rips me rising, screaming from my sleep?
The medical term for all this is Spiritual Infucktion
with features of Recurring Ordinariness,
and Impotent Fury.
Idiot child, horror goblin, my teachers and punishers,
the term I am searching for is
sorrow,
is failure,
is not again not again not again.
The word on the tip of my tongue where it is so badly burned is
HUMAN
and it binds me like a bandage made of water vapor and shrapnel.
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