up, out of the April Michigan ice
in my brown grave of a garden.
This man was never a child.
He never bounced some goddamned ball
or climbed into my lap for a story.
What I'm saying is, this man wasn't natural,
though he grew there
among the astonished screaming jays.
How can I sleep, knowing this shapeless bastard
is leaning upright out there,
moaning like the last lover on earth?
For now, the hard earth is his vice,
he stays half-born, entire,
fucking with my head, expecting some sick future.
Slashing rain and warmth as sudden and wrong
as a stranger in one's kitchen
will free him, he will roar the mud from his throat and tarnish my name on the dead medicine of his lips.
He will call, I will come, terrified and scalded,
to be touched and opened by him,
to weep in his arms, hissing damn you, darling, damn you."
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for day 13.






