Tuesday, February 3, 2009

The Burn


As some of you know, my creative urge has been extinguished for about a week. Since I operate in something akin to dog years, for me that's a long time. But I quite literally dreamt this one up, about an hour ago. Not in lines, but then, dreams are their own special poetry.


In my dream, there was blood...

Bright red, like words you can't take back.

It was woman's blood, that routine and slightly shameful miracle,

And it was mine.

That's how I know it was a dream--

If I bled now

It could only be tears,

Colorless and common as salt.


In my dream, I'd been with someone else...

Someone nicer than you, probably,

But when I put my mouth to her in that familiar prayer, she was calm as a Madonna,

And so I came back here to you.

You had ordered breakfast, chocolate chip pancakes drowned in butter

--so unhealthy and so sweetly delicious--

And though you'd clearly sated yourself while I was away,

It was the sort of easy, loving gesture you're so talented at

When your heart is generous and your claws are sheathed.


In my dream, I wanted to tell you

--as I trailed along after Your Majesty in the way that believers must do--

That I was so glad to be back with you...

That it felt like coming home, even if the house is on fire,

Even if nothing can be saved,

Even if the next kiss has to be the last.


When I woke up,

On cool white sheets in the silent night,

I knew it would be all right;

I knew why unrepentant witches smile through the smoke with their hair on fire;

Despite blood, belief, sweetness and loss,

I'd seen the face I love

And the burn in my bones was back.

__________

20 comments:

Jannie Funster said...

Simply one of the best poems I have ever read.

Ever.

As in, my whole life ever.

Gillian said...

How the hell did you just come up with that?
Clever girl!!!
You are so in touch with yourself. Amazing.
xo

Poutalicious said...

"I knew why unrepentant witches smile through the smoke with their hair on fire." That line made me shutter to think of it. Me thinks this was worth waiting for.

Debbie said...

I love the line about the unrepentant witches as well. This was great.

Fireblossom said...

Thanks, Funstering One, that's high praise indeed. Dreams that demand to be written down in the wee hours are usually worth paying attention to. I felt lighter after writing this.

*blush* thanks Gillian. It was just kind of handed to me by my sleeping mind.

Deb and Pouty, glad you liked my burning witch. The title is a double entendre by the way, a "burn" being a Scottish term for a stream, which kind of ties the beginning and end of the poem together.

Mama Zen said...

I don't have the words. I really, really don't.

I'll just steal Jannie's.

susannassketchbook said...

Ohhhh...You have a way of writing...from deep, deep down and from every part of your being.

Riot Kitty said...

Wow Shay!

Grace DeWitt said...

Hi Shay, I don't know if you've had one of these before but I'm presenting you with the Lemonade Award for all your beautiful poetry!(go to my site for the award and then you can pass it along...if you want).

Phil Bennett said...

Good stuff Shay!! I added myself to your list of followers. :)

Peace,

Phil

david mcmahon said...

I'm so glad you're back and writing again.

Fireblossom said...

Thank you so much everyone, for the kind comments and the lemonade award.

Phil, welcome to the Word Garden, and please visit again. :-)

Kelly Dickson said...

Honouring loss without regrets is hard to do, but i feel you're touching that nerve... This pieces flows, to the subtle beat of eventuality... I can't say I 'liked' it, coz what is there to like? But I get it, and understanding is much more loyal than taste in my experience, bravo xxxx

katherine. said...

very effective.

I found you via david. well deserved post of the day!

Poutalicious said...

You know me I love double entendres. Congrats on POTD. Woot-woot. Must be nice gettin' love from David.

Tiaras & Tantrums said...

simply beautiful

Alyson (New England Living) said...

That is so beautiful! You really have talent.

Fireblossom said...

(((((((((K)))))))))) as always :-)

Thank you, Katherine and welcome to the Word Garden!

I hadn't known you were fond of them, Pouty, but now I do!

Thank you Tiaras and Alyson! Welcome to Word Garden!

Meredith Teagarden said...

Incredible! I found you at PotD and will visit again.

Fireblossom said...

I'm glad you did, and hope you will, Meredith! Welcome to Word Garden!