- ‘The studio was filled with the rich odour of roses, and when the light summer wind stirred amidst the trees of the garden, there came through the open door the heavy scent of the lilac, or the more delicate perfume of the pink-flowering thorn.’- Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Dent Dutton, 1955
I brought you lilacs and asheswrapped in paper milled from early mornings and blind starlings.
On the paper were written a million words
that when translated sickened and when spoken disappeared.
I touched you and grew old but was reborn in the lilacs.
You gave me caramels and sickrooms,
wide verandas where ghosts sang madrigals with sisters of the moon.
You gave me the world's most beautiful door but kept the key.
Your skin was sweet on my tongue, but my tongue became a road to nowhere.
In the ditches there were lilacs, on the hillsides, marigolds.
I wrote you a million poems and grew leaner with each stanza.
You said, "Come in! Come in!" from a dark hall that narrowed into nothing.
Such was our love. Such was the starling with its injuries,
hiding in the lilac ditch. Such was the silent book,
the radiant rose, the bright marigolds on the coffin of time.
The moon makes me remember and I cannot forgive
its ruined face
so pale
so luminous
so sorrowful
like a Japanese lantern at the canceled wedding of joy and misery.
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