to laze in one's garden wearing a sun hat
as a lady may do of a June afternoon.
Poetry is the Boston Marriage of the arts--
termed by some a higher devotion
and by others a harmless quirk.
The lady poet must avoid unpleasantness
and lift her literary skirts
above the puddle in the road.
Upon discovery of my desire to be a lady poet,
my father entombed me with his own manuscripts
mummified by papier-mache and shellac.
My mother tried to can me with her tomatoes
to debut at some later date
in a more malleable and acceptable guise.
Writing poetry is a fine thing,
to jump in the blood and guts wearing suspenders
and getting arrested after midnight.
Drunk on gin, turns of phrase, and love of fire
to dwell in the house of the falling crossbeams
for seven years give or take
And then to sleep with men, sleep with women,
sleep with marvels and nightmares
such as no one ever speaks of, and then to scream it.
After all of this, it will be a fine thing
to laze in the garden wearing my scars and hip-hoorahs
as a lady may do of an October afternoon
My father dead in his grave, my mother careful in hers,
and my many selves rolling over in theirs,
all for this higher devotion, this quaint quirk, this thing that I live for.
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For Dverse Poetics: Reimagining the Familiar hosted by Dora
and What's Going On--"Morn of Restoration" hosted by Mary
Music: Chantel Chamberland Temptation (written by Tom Waits)
A fantastic poem and even more fantastic journey. I so love the rising, refusing to be kept down, culminating in that wonderful closing line. My life would have been much poorer had I not read your poems all these years.
ReplyDeleteAll those different selves, a life's journey... love it.
ReplyDeleteI agree with you.... Writing poetry is a fine thing! And, sometimes, can be very restorative for one's many selves!
ReplyDeleteThere are many layers to our existence. Your words remind that beyond simple labels there are complicated selves to explore beautifully with poetry.
ReplyDeleteYou turned the idea of what a "lady" poet should be on its head. Of course you did. I laughed out loud at with the "can me with her tomatoes line" and loved, loved stanzas 6 & 7.
ReplyDeleteI just love this 🩷 It's encapsulated in that final line for me:
ReplyDelete"all for this higher devotion, this quaint quirk, this thing that I live for."
This lyrical bildungsroman reminds me again of the fearless lady poet that you are, Shay, not at all out of the mold, but born from a crucible of contained selves, those expected by others and those lived. Which is why it's a glorious thing to read your poetry, because it is an act of restoration and liberation too. So laze away in the garden "wearing [your] scars and hip-hoorahs": they are where we all start, as Yeats put it, "in the rag and bone shop of the heart."
ReplyDeleteThere are some really great lines like the mother/tomato one and the grave analogy. Poetry is a fine thing and you really captured thoughtful movement here. The friction of expectations is handled so delicately. Great job! Loved it.
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ReplyDelete"Writing poetry is a fine thing,
to jump in the blood and guts wearing suspenders
and getting arrested after midnight." What a life it's been! And I think after all of it--the muck and fire and love--" it will be a fine thing / to laze in the garden wearing my scars and hip-hoorahs . . ." To live in poetry is worth it.
Love your 'higher devotion' that enriches all.
ReplyDeleteA gentle lament written as only you could. The power of your pen punctuates expectations with hidden exclamation points. I am glad you found your own way and didn't get canned for debut later.
ReplyDeleteMmmmm loved this.....real rip-roaring poetry, a joust with words.
ReplyDeletea sensational lady poet you are - the poem resonates throughout with such blatant and wry imagery right up to that final climatic stanza
ReplyDeletep.s. this has overtones for me of the Bloomsbury group
This was a beautiful poem! I love the resilience you show through it.
ReplyDeleteYvette M Calleiro :-)
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That image, lifting one's literary skirts! Perfect. You are indeed a survivor. Come the revolution, I want you in my trench! Amy
ReplyDeleteI love the poignancy with which this poem is penned, Shay! You are an amazing lady poet! ❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteFor me this encapsulates in its poetic apotheosis the entirety of why we write. In many ways, it evades my ability to pin it down with words, because it is that good. It's more than just a personal history, it's a live thing itself, meandering through experience like a migrating bird, by those mysterious magnetic signals and instincts that are buried deep within and baffle science and preconceived reality. Every line, every metaphor hits home, culminating in a perfect final stanza that illuminates both writer and written word. One of your best, Shay, and should be published to a wider audience, like everyone who can read.
ReplyDelete“My mother tried to can me with her tomatoes” all time great line.
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