Reanimated Lavender Granola Switchblade Nun rides again.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Mission
On a dead planet with nine moons
I said,
This cannot stand.
This will never do.
He said,
Is it the constant storms?
Is it the greenless wastes where nothing ever grew?
I said no dear,
Not that, dear...
It's you.
Nine moons around my head
Nine pentagrams around my bed
Can't watch or pray
The devil away
Because,
Because,
I keep her close and my hatred fed.
The lightning flashes and strikes at last
And all this sand is turned to glass--
It cuts me
And splits me
Now I think
It may be
That there are ten of me
Or ten thousand,
Ten million,
And each with its own little coal black heart--
Never to forgive you.
Never to part.
_______
for One Shoot Sunday
I said,
This cannot stand.
This will never do.
He said,
Is it the constant storms?
Is it the greenless wastes where nothing ever grew?
I said no dear,
Not that, dear...
It's you.
Nine moons around my head
Nine pentagrams around my bed
Can't watch or pray
The devil away
Because,
Because,
I keep her close and my hatred fed.
The lightning flashes and strikes at last
And all this sand is turned to glass--
It cuts me
And splits me
Now I think
It may be
That there are ten of me
Or ten thousand,
Ten million,
And each with its own little coal black heart--
Never to forgive you.
Never to part.
_______
for One Shoot Sunday
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Joan Of Arc (Maid of Orleans)
In 2006, when I had just started writing again, my girlfriend at the time made me sit down on a weekend evening much like this one, and listen to a song (she had made sure) I had never heard before. She said, that's you, you're Joan.
Sometimes when i feel down, I still like to listen to it. I like knowing that somebody thought I was Joan.
The Canadian Space Program
The Canadian Space Program languishes.
They can barely coax a four seater as far as Yellowknife, let alone launch a space station.
All Canadians drag a heavy anchor of shame behind them, because of this.
Imagine if Ottawa established a vibrant new agency, and Canadians pushed towards the stars!
Imagine handsome strong men and beautiful capable women dressed in uniforms which honor the fabled Leafs and Habs with their blue and red colors!
Imagine transmissions coming in from amazing new worlds, in both English and French, eh?
Sure, no one would have any idea what those excitable French were saying, but so what?
Alors! Allons nous!
Some chick and her cats are launched towards Mars.
They travel at umpty billion kilometers per hour, but it feels to them as if they are floating like dandelion fuzz.
Canadians pour into the streets, cheering.
In an access of enthusiasm, they take Detroit and Buffalo, and launch them into space as well.
Soon there are Timbits on the moon.
Can anything stop the Canadians?
It is discovered that the dust of the lunar surface is just like snow.
The 2018 Winter Games are awarded to the moon, under the auspices of Canada!
Drunken lumberjacks shout and pummel each other in a spontaneous expression of joy and national pride.
Winnipeg, gloriously inspired, brings the Stanley Cup home to Canada, and they don't even have a team!
All across the north, it is a new day.
From space, the chick and her cats broadcast on Christmas Day.
"In-fucking-credible!" she reports, and the news media repeats these now famous words endlessly.
It's better than a visit from the old-ass Queen of England any day.
This could be your legacy, Canadians!
Up! To work!
To the very heavens!
We have lift-off!!!
Oh hell yeah.
________
Friday, January 28, 2011
Travel Facts
- In Mexico, men who do not bathe frequently enough are made to marry coyotes, unless of course the coyote objects, in which case the wedding is off.
- In Peru, it is thought that storing dice inside a chili pepper for 24 hours heats them up.
- In Russia, sunlight is such a rare commodity that tiny slivers can be traded for caviar, vodka, or genuine sable coats.
- In Oklahoma, the women are known for being spirited but difficult, and have been known to inflict injury with expertly-wielded family bibles.
- The English are prone to constipation.
- In India, tigers often kidnap beautiful princesses, and never bring them back. Years later, amazing striped women walk into the villages, claiming to be the daughters of these princesses. It is considered unwise to contradict them.
- In Michigan, there are no wolverines left, but if there were, they would be able to speak perfect French, having been taught by missionaries.
- The Japanese burn with shame for the hideous secrets they keep about the shocking things they have done.
- Scandinavians enjoy "ee haw" music.
- Hungarian gypsies are able to turn ordinary crows into musical notes. When the crows fly, the gypsies dance.
- Australians cannot make themselves understood without bulky and impractical alphabet boards which they wear like vests and use for creating subtitles. They are always losing the R's.
- Masai tribesmen enjoy puppet theater.
- In Canada, space travel remains a pipe dream.
- In the Philippines, "Star Trek" reruns are dubbed in Tagolog, the local language.
- Miami is the birthplace of both disco music and neo-cubist art.
- Only a couple of these things are actually true.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Dig
I kept fire wrapped in folded paper
Inside a little brown envelope
Closed with a string clasp
Hidden in my skirts.
When I got a fever
It escaped
And I went red
Then yellow
Then black
From west to east across my skin
Like prairie in love with the lightning.
What's the matter?
Why don't you come to me anymore?
I can write more poems,
Hang the verses from my bones,
And you can find how I used to feel--
But you'll have to sully your
Sweet
White
Hands
Sifting with your fingers through my ashes.
_________
for Thursday Think Tank #33
photo by Metin Demiralay
Inside a little brown envelope
Closed with a string clasp
Hidden in my skirts.
When I got a fever
It escaped
And I went red
Then yellow
Then black
From west to east across my skin
Like prairie in love with the lightning.
What's the matter?
Why don't you come to me anymore?
I can write more poems,
Hang the verses from my bones,
And you can find how I used to feel--
But you'll have to sully your
Sweet
White
Hands
Sifting with your fingers through my ashes.
_________
for Thursday Think Tank #33
photo by Metin Demiralay
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Storm Science
She is dark.
She is hidden.
She has a million sisters but is unique to her last ion.
I wake and listen.
She could care.
She is moon-ruled.
She could show herself a million places but has chosen my desire.
I open the window and breathe.
She sends out a charge.
I send one back.
It has been done a million times but this one shocks my heart and shivers my bones.
We could open the door,
But we kick it down.
I run into the night, first laughing, then urgent as I open myself, waiting;
She blows through me and I lift,
Burning,
Into the storm.
_________
photo by Metin Demiralay
Monday, January 24, 2011
New York Tendaberry
When I was in high school, I discovered "New York Tendaberry" by Laura Nyro. It remains my favorite album ever. This is the last song on it. I heard the passion and the poetry she created and knew that's what I wanted to do, and be.
I had never heard anything like her, and still haven't. When I heard this song the first time, I cried. When I heard this song just now, I cried. She made me want to be a passionate original who could turn the world around her into amazing art. The place shown in the opening? I wanted to live there. I wanted to be Laura Nyro. Well, I'm me, and that's turned out all right, I think.
Enjoy.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Fin De Siecle
Sigmund Freud visits the local tribal casino,
Sits down,
And in his heavy Austrian accent, says,
"Hit me."
Vladimir Lenin, colorless and severe, agitates to have the pot collectivized,
And is thrown out by bouncers.
He makes his way through the strange city,
Boards a train, then transfers to a steamship,
Finally going into exile in Paris.
Consider:
Why does the sight of the ace of spades make certain of the dancers go upstairs together,
Undress,
And fall into whispered discussion of each other's dreams?
Why does the queen of hearts induce silly laughter
And drunken tears?
Why does the nine of diamonds
Cause sudden grim departure,
Isolation,
Suicide?
A former football star and an expensive prostitute are tableside,having a tractor-pull.
As long as she holds him between her fingers like that,
He will burn.
He is confident enough to wear a pink shirt;
Is he a communist?
He certainly dreams of annexing her,
Controlling her media,
Installing a puppet government.
Through all of this,
Sigmund Freud has been losing his shirt.
He is quietly terrified.
The chips have become imagoes,
The dealer a devouring vagina.
He stands up,
Mops his brow,
Trembles.
Oh, Sigmund,
Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar;
But sometimes,
It is a baton passed from careless fingers
Into doom.
At a little cafe near the Seine,
Something unusual happens at that very moment--
Lenin sets down his cup,
Dabs his lips with a napkin,
Leans back,
And laughs like a schoolgirl.
The ace of spades is folded inside his bill,
And he cannot control himself,
Cannot, for the life of him,
Stop.
_______
for One Shoot Sunday
Friday, January 21, 2011
Indian Days
What burns grows back.
The sky is always in motion.
Don't kiss the one with the wind in her blood.
Don't become devoted to her skin.
Watch the way she handles an egg.
Does she warm it first in her hand, as if it might surrender a sigh
Or a peacock?
When she kisses it beyond all saving
Against the rim of a pretty kiln-fired bowl,
Does she coax or crush?
Does it matter to the broken shell?
Still, if you kiss the one with pilfered turquoise on every finger,
If you become devoted to her scent, her deep Indian eyes, her hair--
Remember that bones can birth a second, more careful heart,
What burns grows back,
And the sky is always in motion.
_________
photograph by Metin Demiralay
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
1909
It was a long way to go
To the friend's house,
So she,
Hattie,
And Marjorie
Dressed themselves like cloth bells
And swung with each step
Through the snow.
She had not slept much the night before--
When the fireside is warm
And the wine is good
There are more uses than one for a lady's scarf;
But today she talks of cobblers and cows
To Hattie
And Marjorie
Because, after all,
Friends, too, can warm a woman's heart.
It was a long way to go,
From the morning to the evening--
She grew tired
And her feet got cold.
Eventually, her friends
Hattie,
And then Marjorie,
Went their own way into night across the snow.
I cannot see my foot tracks anymore, she thought,
No helpful light yet drifting from the sky;
I cannot feel my fingers,
Nor my slowly quieting heart...
I cannot feel...
I cannot feel...
I.
________
for Magpie 49
Dedicated to my grandmother, whose name was Marjorie. You are missed.
_________
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Beautiful Mess
I drew poppies
With red O.P.I.
On the white window sill
And your messy hair
As you slept
Looked like crow's wings
Spread
Across impossible
Joyful
Fairy tales.
______
One Shot Wednesday
Monday, January 17, 2011
Questions And Answers, Once Upon A Time
Carrying my heart between my lungs in a bag of broken glass
So I wear a thousand overcoats
And can't feel it when they ask
What are you going to do about...?
Why do you...?
What makes you think that we...?
You always...
You never...
The best thing about a bottle is it has a mouth but never talks
So I take it off alone some place
And we kiss til I can't walk
Do you care about ____ at all?
Is anything more important to you than...?
How long do you think you can...?
You'll only wind up dead...
Please shut up and let me pass out here
On the shards so pretty and red.
_______
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Dance of the Blackbird
First of all, I've cheated. I found the photo prompt at One Shoot Sunday too tame, and so I've switched it out for one I like better. As Cyndi Lauper sang, ain't no law against it yet.
Now then. Even a girl not properly respectful of photo prompts must respect her betters, and my favorite poetess in the cyber world, Hedgewitch, has introduced me to the sestina. Here is mine.
DANCE OF THE BLACKBIRD
Because of desire, I so loved the rain
I slipped out of my body to float in the air
With an ancient prayer, I slipped my skin
Dismissing virtue, dismissing sin
I kissed the storm and joined it there
Incorporeal, a dreamer insane
To those who would live in a body of air
To those who would touch the storm on its skin
If light is love, if darkness is sin
What of the ones who mix them there?
To those who call the serene insane
Slip out of your skins, slip into the rain
What I love best is smooth olive skin
By candle light, inviting sin
Dark hair like dark weather spreading there
To make me shake with desire insane
As ice is to steam, as steam is to rain
You are to me as flesh is to air
Proscriptions are boring, so is sin
What's gone comes back, what's vanished is there
In my sleep like sighs, like a night insane
To fall like an angel, wrapped in rain
To rise like spirit when kissed by air
Without constraint, nor bone, nor skin
A wail of wind, a strike just there
What began in calm, arrives insane
In driving need and driving rain
Heat rising into cooler air
A shade obsessed with pulse and skin
Twists holy love with edgy sin
Desire in the bones is desire insane
As love of you is love of the rain
To find you, I've turned my body to air
To touch you, I've brought the sky to your skin
My mind to fever, my heart to sin
A floundering bird in the storm's heart, there
I've so loved the rain that so loves your skin
Carried by clouds to salvation and sin
Did you even, ever, know I was there?
_______
Now then. Even a girl not properly respectful of photo prompts must respect her betters, and my favorite poetess in the cyber world, Hedgewitch, has introduced me to the sestina. Here is mine.
DANCE OF THE BLACKBIRD
Because of desire, I so loved the rain
I slipped out of my body to float in the air
With an ancient prayer, I slipped my skin
Dismissing virtue, dismissing sin
I kissed the storm and joined it there
Incorporeal, a dreamer insane
To those who would live in a body of air
To those who would touch the storm on its skin
If light is love, if darkness is sin
What of the ones who mix them there?
To those who call the serene insane
Slip out of your skins, slip into the rain
What I love best is smooth olive skin
By candle light, inviting sin
Dark hair like dark weather spreading there
To make me shake with desire insane
As ice is to steam, as steam is to rain
You are to me as flesh is to air
Proscriptions are boring, so is sin
What's gone comes back, what's vanished is there
In my sleep like sighs, like a night insane
To fall like an angel, wrapped in rain
To rise like spirit when kissed by air
Without constraint, nor bone, nor skin
A wail of wind, a strike just there
What began in calm, arrives insane
In driving need and driving rain
Heat rising into cooler air
A shade obsessed with pulse and skin
Twists holy love with edgy sin
Desire in the bones is desire insane
As love of you is love of the rain
To find you, I've turned my body to air
To touch you, I've brought the sky to your skin
My mind to fever, my heart to sin
A floundering bird in the storm's heart, there
I've so loved the rain that so loves your skin
Carried by clouds to salvation and sin
Did you even, ever, know I was there?
_______
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
The Black Ops Bread Truck
In the dawn comes the black ops bread truck--
I think you know the one I mean;
Switching out donuts in the misty dawn--
Swapping out custard for creme.
Darling, darling,
I've put a sugar-dusted mini to my eye
But, through the donut, you don't seem any sweeter,
So baby, this is goodbye.
The black ops bread truck people
Perform missions more twisted than a cruller;
But, lambchop, our love has grown stale,
And couldn't really get any duller.
Black ops bakery,
Swoop in, carry me off, like a loaf beneath your arm--
And then.....slap me around until I admit
This poem really sucks. Darn.
I guess I am really just a lightweight--
Like a smuggled-in bag of Happy Chips
Still, dear heart, you've been deposed
And all that other crappy shit...
Our crumby love has ended,
Our inventory is down to the bone--
Now I'm leaving with the black ops bread truck
But I leave you
this stupid
poem.
_____
My skills have clearly eroded.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Le Printemps
I traveled across an icy place.
My shoes fit badly.
I reminded no one of Swan Lake.
I arrived, in a snow storm, in front of a coin laundry, under an overhang.
The pavement was wet.
An old black man was mumbling on a bench.
Cars crawled by like thoughts through a hangover.
There was a woman there,
With a baby on her hip,
And a cigarette in her hand.
There was no bible god in sight, and so I
Put my hand to the back of her month-old highlights and kissed her
Like a butterfly landing on a pastry.
When I leaned back to gaze into her eyes,
She squinted and said,
"Who the fuck are you?"
Standing there in my old parka and knit hat, I said,
"I am the Spirit of Spring, baby."
She was wearing boots, jeans, a brown ribbed turtleneck and a red flannel shirt.
She took a drag, blew it out, and then stood there in the smoke cloud
As if it were dry ice.
She seemed to decide something, tossed away her smoke and tilted her head.
I followed her.
The baby looked back at me as if I were some amazing talking toy.
She lived above the coin laundry.
There was crap all over the place;
A little portable stereo on the floor,
Books on the couch,
Off the kitchen a stuffed-full pantry with no door.
I said, "I came to the coin laundry to get clean."
She said, "I came to the coin laundry to get kissed."
In the morning, she kicked me out,
But with a smile.
The baby was fussing behind me as I went down the stairs.
All my clothes smelled like an ashtray.
I had trouble getting through the downstairs door to the street
Because of my glorious, white, soft-feathered wings,
And everywhere I looked,
The apple trees had blossomed overnight.
_______
amazing photograph by Daryl Edelstein
linked to magpie 48 and One Shot Wednesday 28
Sunday, January 9, 2011
The Passionate Gypsy To Her Love
I am always the red leaf on the green tree--
The odd wildflower that turns up in the garden.
I have learned to spot trouble from a mile away--
I get ready to fight.
I will bite and draw blood without apology,
But I am still more lost dog than wolf,
And as sweet by nature.
As I have gotten older,
If there is a different fish in the stream, it will swim into my hand;
If there is a ring around the moon, it will rise over my house,
And the spirits laugh at the jars I hang from the trees to catch them.
I am the shaded rain drop among the clear--
The Queen of Funnels in your stolen deck.
I do not see things the same.
When I was younger, my visions scared me--
They swirled and never slept.
Now they are as familiar as a house cat,
And roughly as biddable.
When I look at you at night as you sleep,
I use the spooky yellow eyes of my dreams.
I am a gypsy and the road is long--
There is always a red sky in the morning,
But nobody could ever tell me anything.
Nobody could stop me, once I picked up my skirts and put my head down.
What I'm trying to tell you, sweetheart, is
It's the weather inside my skin that creates the roadside that I see.
There will always be haints and hurricanes there--
But when I shake my hair and speak your name,
When I feel that sweet flush from thinking of you, or seeing you swaying like a sunflower to some music on the air,
There is beauty in my world.
There is some notion of a resting place and a delicious trembling,
Whether from laughter or desire.
These things are there because you are,
And so I thank you, darling mine,
From the bottom of my crazy gypsy soul.
________
for One Shoot Sunday
picture by KJ Halliday
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Thomas Hardy Zombie
with apologies to Pete
Radiation from the Archbishop of Canterbury's cell phone
Wakes Thomas Hardy Zombie from his rest.
He emerges,
Crosses himself,
Genuflects,
Then eats the Archbishop's worthy brains.
Thomas Hardy Zombie shuffles out of Westminster Abbey.
He needs a men's clothier.
He needs a haberdasher.
He needs to get on the tube.
In London,
No one speaks English,
No one is actually from there,
And no one gives a fuck about you, or your stupid Wessex, either.
Thomas Hardy left his heart in Stinsford, next to Emma.
He sits on the underground train,
Unable to read the map on the opposite wall, because of the pregnant woman,
The war cripple,
And the noisy group of drunken Germans,
All standing in front of where he is seated.
Must the Germans cook everything in beer, thinks Thomas Hardy Zombie,
Even their noodles?
The thought makes his stomach turn over,
And he belches loudly.
"Pardon me," mumbles Thomas Hardy Zombie, mortified.
His elegant Victorian manners remain largely intact.
Because he is a zombie, his mind is fraught with hellish nightmares:
The Welsh.
The Irish.
Worst of all, the Scots.
He moans.
To settle himself, he decides to compose a love poem.
As the train clacks and jostles, the great writer considers his task, and what sentiments,
Which natural wonders,
What unforgettable bucolic setting
Should he choose?
He begins to write:
brains
brains
brains
eat brains!
He pauses, to review.
Not exactly "A Saturday afternoon in November was approaching the time of twilight", but
It's something down on paper,
Something to tidy up and work from.
Getting off the train, Thomas Hardy Zombie forgets the recorded warning to "mind the gap",
And his leg goes straight down between the car and the platform,
Snapping off like a moldy twig.
He is stampeded over by students and smartly-dressed young businesswomen,
All of them wearing a dizzying array of greys, blacks, and charcoal.
One of them dares to wear a red scarf,
And is thundered over without regard, as well.
Thomas Hardy Zombie hops, one-legged, to the escalator.
This presents a problem, so he stops.
A group of Japanese,
Then a small pod of Indian techno-nerds
Trample him from behind.
The fragile, long-dead (and living dead) poet is ground to dust under their heels.
With that,
The President Of The Immortals had ended his sport with Thomas Hardy Zombie,
And his final work goes unfinished.
Humbly, I complete it here:
brains
mmm, brains
brains
brains
brains
(You're welcome.)
________
Radiation from the Archbishop of Canterbury's cell phone
Wakes Thomas Hardy Zombie from his rest.
He emerges,
Crosses himself,
Genuflects,
Then eats the Archbishop's worthy brains.
Thomas Hardy Zombie shuffles out of Westminster Abbey.
He needs a men's clothier.
He needs a haberdasher.
He needs to get on the tube.
In London,
No one speaks English,
No one is actually from there,
And no one gives a fuck about you, or your stupid Wessex, either.
Thomas Hardy left his heart in Stinsford, next to Emma.
He sits on the underground train,
Unable to read the map on the opposite wall, because of the pregnant woman,
The war cripple,
And the noisy group of drunken Germans,
All standing in front of where he is seated.
Must the Germans cook everything in beer, thinks Thomas Hardy Zombie,
Even their noodles?
The thought makes his stomach turn over,
And he belches loudly.
"Pardon me," mumbles Thomas Hardy Zombie, mortified.
His elegant Victorian manners remain largely intact.
Because he is a zombie, his mind is fraught with hellish nightmares:
The Welsh.
The Irish.
Worst of all, the Scots.
He moans.
To settle himself, he decides to compose a love poem.
As the train clacks and jostles, the great writer considers his task, and what sentiments,
Which natural wonders,
What unforgettable bucolic setting
Should he choose?
He begins to write:
brains
brains
brains
eat brains!
He pauses, to review.
Not exactly "A Saturday afternoon in November was approaching the time of twilight", but
It's something down on paper,
Something to tidy up and work from.
Getting off the train, Thomas Hardy Zombie forgets the recorded warning to "mind the gap",
And his leg goes straight down between the car and the platform,
Snapping off like a moldy twig.
He is stampeded over by students and smartly-dressed young businesswomen,
All of them wearing a dizzying array of greys, blacks, and charcoal.
One of them dares to wear a red scarf,
And is thundered over without regard, as well.
Thomas Hardy Zombie hops, one-legged, to the escalator.
This presents a problem, so he stops.
A group of Japanese,
Then a small pod of Indian techno-nerds
Trample him from behind.
The fragile, long-dead (and living dead) poet is ground to dust under their heels.
With that,
The President Of The Immortals had ended his sport with Thomas Hardy Zombie,
And his final work goes unfinished.
Humbly, I complete it here:
brains
mmm, brains
brains
brains
brains
(You're welcome.)
________
Friday, January 7, 2011
Life Story
Lightning struck the tree--
Mama blamed me,
But she couldn't find my trialsome ass
Cos one block of blackened wood looks much like the next.
So, I slipped the strike in my pocket
And took up smoking,
Kissed the girl next door--
She was older,
Invited me in,
Shut the door,
And I grew up like a gypsy in her jewelry box--
Hers and a dozen others more.
Years later, another light came out of Heaven,
And I sobered up--
Quit cursing during grace,
Or wearing fishnets on the church steps;
Tried the straight and narrow ways
For a while,
Crocodile.
Now I live in a bower made of books;
I whisk words with the places I've been and haven't been--
I spend my days out on the porch,
And after dark, I'm in.
I kiss my finger when I've cut it on a page-edge;
My dog sticks close to home.
The old strike is still there,
Kept between my writing chair
And the window where I watch the dandelion seeds
And river reeds.
My remaining life lies just beyond,
It might be wise or unwise,
But what it so certainly is,
Is exquisitely,
Deliciously,
My own.
_________
Thursday, January 6, 2011
House Of Wax
He moved her into a house filled with spirits,
Then brought in that gloomy, ring-eyed excorcist
Before she'd had the chance to sleep with half of them.
No wonder he fell down the basement stairs
Christmas Eve,
His egg nog balanced perfectly unspilled on the second step,
Him at the bottom,
Staring broken-necked at the dryer.
These things happen, said the firemen,
Snapping their gurney open smartly and removing him on it too soon,
Before she'd had the chance to sleep with half of them.
No wonder their alarms keep going off
At exactly midnight in the firehouse
When there is no emergency
And the telephones make that awful off-the-hook whining noise
Inside their heads.
All I'm trying to say,
Is if you come to stay,
Kiss her softly,
Welcome her crossed ankles across your back,
And remember--
There's plenty of time to fill your lungs in the sunrise,
Hours from now,
Haunted and scented like last night's candle,
Rolled out the back door
And into the light.
________
Worldes Blis
In the time of the black death,
There were still little silly white clouds,
Floating overhead like some sort of joke.
On the day of the ergot fungus,
The bread brought visions,
Panic,
And the violent jerks of St. Vitus' dance.
Leave off your washing--
You'll only have to burn it all anyway.
Meet me in the fields,
By the road where the Duchess's carriage lies tilted and empty in the ditch.
I have a half a loaf of rye,
And all afternoon to spend.
Come kiss me.
Use your tongue.
I already know you're contagious, and that I am infected;
We can lie here on our backs,
Watching the clouds, and our hallucinations.
If we don't die first,
I will tell you that I love you.
It's true, but
You can laugh, and blame fever or psychosis,
If you're even still answering me
At all.
______
"Worldes Blis" is a 12th century chant, which says, essentially, "earthly joys don't last for long." You can't really dance to it.
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Winter Wheat
I tried to make a bargain with the morning
Out on the dirt road
Frozen hard.
I said,
"I will swap you one of my dreams--"
But she shook her hair, the way straight women do;
(It was made of slanting light--
I could see right through)
Her boredom made my joints ache,
And kind of pissed me off, too.
I did something bad to the morning,
And had all I could handle
Rolling her down into the half ice of the river.
Ever seen a girl like her fall off a star?
The river held her for just a moment,
Then cracked its bones
And let her fall.
She sank
Like my heart does
Whenever you leave my little room.
I came back and told you what I'd done to the morning,
Though you were still sleeping
With one hand under your pillow
And the other
Waiting for me to kiss it
And fill it with wet delicious cherries.
What I had wanted from the morning
Was to swap out one of my dreams
(One of the good ones, with lightning and talking cats and fields of winter wheat grown high in a Kansas July)
For a simple promise:
That you would stay.
That you would wrap your body around mine and not leave;
That I could bury my face in your coarse black hair and breathe,
As if it were smoke from a smudge stick,
Keeping devils away.
But I killed the morning,
And left her blankly tossing her hair at the bottom of the river.
You will wake up, see the time,
And those perfect hands of yours will only grace cold car keys
While I kiss the devil
And call her by your name.
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Disasters Elsewhere
What is more dull than other people's lovers?
And what is less compelling
Than disasters elsewhere
And the people who wring their hands over them?
What matters is
My coffee isn't right
And you have not kissed me
In more than ten hours.
I am a dry leaf.
Shall I shade you?
I need all the world's rain for myself--
Get out of here,
And take with you all the places I never go.
Once,
I was a messenger of divine kindness.
I taped together wounded butterflies,
And even watched your damn kids.
Now,
I have someone else do my dancing, though badly,
And I steal songs from the throats of yellow birds
To stuff into my stiff black shoes
Lest they lose their shape.
Someone else's lover came knocking at my door
With an earthquake in his hands.
People fell from him.
My steps shivered and cracked.
You know,
This coffee just isn't right
And you have not kissed me
In more than ten years,
But you hang all over that bastard at the door.
Did you get sick of women?
Or was it because my brown autumn eyes
Left you in famine,
So you sought out the flood?
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a little portrait of the butch from hell, for One Shot Wednesday
Monday, January 3, 2011
Feral Flux
I tried to fit in.
I did.
I tried to sleep in a bed,
To stretch out on linen sheets with the scent of lavender on my skin, light as a blessing,
Or like snow on the frozen,
Staring straight up.
After a while, I always begin to itch and wear out razors by the pack full,
Every day,
Watching the dirt on my feet turn to pads,
My nails to claws.
I tried to lunch with the ladies.
I swear.
They ordered salads, and I meant to, too,
But before I knew it,
I was skidding across the table with a rabbit in my jaws
And it bled
On the cutlery and the bread,
And I grew nervous
As I lay it down dead and jumped through the plate glass
And into the night.
I tried to be what I saw.
Honestly.
But I have always been so hungry,
So wild,
So other.
I have skulked around garbage cans and allowed housewives to shoo me with brooms.
Now, though,
I will drag one by her dreams to my home dug into the earth.
I will call her by the name of the eclipsed moon.
I will wait for her until she comes barefoot to seek my golden gaze
On the coldest night of the year.
Then,
I will tend as smooth and soft as such things can ever go;
I will speak in the voice I forgot before my earliest memory,
And I will make love with her
This time--
Oh, this time,
Without searching.
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THE WINTER SCHOOL by Fireblossom and Hedgewitch
Darlings, I'm taking a departure from my usual unicorns and sugar fairies this morning, in order to bring you this collaborative effort from the almost illegally talented Hedgewitch and (for ballast) Yours Truly. Blame her for the absence of anime bunnies. I would have included them. And now, without further tedious ceremony, our poem...
THE WINTER SCHOOL
At the Winter School,
Classes were held at night--
Girls on the left,
Spirits on the right;
Our elbows scratched lessons on frosted windows,
And our teachers sang us lullabyes
While appearing to us as crows.
But they were not as kind as crows.
They cawed and pecked at living and dead--
We learned to cover the eyes, and stuff the nose
Inside a book, reading through our fingers, pass or fail,
Fettered with sweaty palms and liquid sighs,
Dancing with dragons and jumping from their tails
Was all we knew to do to see the sky.
But girls have their ways, and we had ours.
We hid tar in our traveling bags,
And stars in brown deserted bowers;
When the time was right,
We crept down the stair and into the night;
No stay or whalebone could keep us there--
Not with our summer-drunk dragons in sight.
I would be Circe and you dark Medea,
Me for the luring and you for the kill.
It was all a game, though we knew that such pastimes
As crows put together are contests of will;
Chaos would call us to fight their knight goblins, stranglers
With garlands of weeds, green gilded with lies
Gifting masks of agreement we knew would not fit us
So we called the black dragons to come from the skies.
_________
image: Medea
PS--fans of the ongoing Fireblossom-G Man grudge match have GOT to click HERE!
THE WINTER SCHOOL
At the Winter School,
Classes were held at night--
Girls on the left,
Spirits on the right;
Our elbows scratched lessons on frosted windows,
And our teachers sang us lullabyes
While appearing to us as crows.
But they were not as kind as crows.
They cawed and pecked at living and dead--
We learned to cover the eyes, and stuff the nose
Inside a book, reading through our fingers, pass or fail,
Fettered with sweaty palms and liquid sighs,
Dancing with dragons and jumping from their tails
Was all we knew to do to see the sky.
But girls have their ways, and we had ours.
We hid tar in our traveling bags,
And stars in brown deserted bowers;
When the time was right,
We crept down the stair and into the night;
No stay or whalebone could keep us there--
Not with our summer-drunk dragons in sight.
I would be Circe and you dark Medea,
Me for the luring and you for the kill.
It was all a game, though we knew that such pastimes
As crows put together are contests of will;
Chaos would call us to fight their knight goblins, stranglers
With garlands of weeds, green gilded with lies
Gifting masks of agreement we knew would not fit us
So we called the black dragons to come from the skies.
_________
image: Medea
PS--fans of the ongoing Fireblossom-G Man grudge match have GOT to click HERE!
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