I was cruel, I admit it.
I said things, things I'm not proud of,
and had no mercy, no care for what I did.
All the birds I am made from--
my own distinct darlings and devils--
and most particularly, shotguns.
This happens, from time to time--
this disenchantment, this anger, this flocking out on the ledge.
Loud noises ruin everything,
and when I am feeling this way,
I am a cacophony.
See how clever you are.
See how my birds come to you, in winter
in summer, in distress and in droves,
saying "She is gone mad again, and we cannot reckon anymore."
See how you shush and shelter them,
my storm orphans.
Here is the curved sky,
the similar earth below;
here is the birdhouse with its precise holes for entry,
and its green shingled roof for keeping out.
You asked me for a bird, tonight, knowing I wouldn't refuse.
You brought no cage, no tether.
How quiet it got, so that all there was to hear was feathers
as I flew back into myself and became this poem,
the one you saved,
the one I wrote in birdsong for you.
for Every Day I Write The Book at Real Toads.